Once..

Once there was a man who has tasted the good and bad,being stupid,obsessed and even cheated in love but slowly he learned one thing; that what he did was not the right way to love and being in love.As a man,he came to his senses that to love a woman is to marry her and guide her in Islam and for that reason,he gave up the couple tradition and set up some principles. Those principles are simple which is, not to do anything unusual or special or even buy gifts and date a woman,unless she is rightfully his. He wanted to preserve all those special treats for only one woman; his wife. He successfully keep that up for nearly a year when God sent him a test on his own principles that he made. He came to know this girl, got closer her and when he met her face to face for the first time, he fell in love. He did not wait long and sent her a message telling her that he was looking for wife and if she was interested in making that a reality, Unfortunately, she was too young to think about marriage and too inexperienced in such matter so he was turned down. He was thinking of stopping right away, but he did not. Love is a tricky thing, and his heart denied his intention of stopping. He continued to be in contact with this girl and keep thinking of a way to slip into her heart. He came to a dead end and was desperate so he thought, 'Should I take her out and buy something 4 her?or have fun like watching movies and so on??' And that was against his principles but he did it anyway. He broke them for her. 'If I broke my own principles, she'd better be my wife. Or else, I would be ashamed to meet my real wife.' and so he thought. As her birthday present, he went out with her, watched 3D short film and movie, and bought her some doughnuts. It did not stop there, as he did the same thing again and even bought her a baju kurung for raya. The problem is, he never get to know how she felt for him. When they hang out she did not talk a lot with him but seemed more friendly to others. She talked a lot to others but not him. There were many circumstances showing that, for her, he was just some guy, not more than that. He is restless. He was disappointed. Things got messed up since the last time they went out. He got jealous and felt terrible at that moment. After that, she was not the same as before. He really thought he would never have the chance to get her and that he might have to accept reality and let her go. But its not that easy as he wanted to at least know how she really felt for him so he sent her messages. She did not reply. He prayed to God that whatever her answer is ,he would be strong enough to accept it,as he always been. How would it end? He would not put his hope high, but rather prepared for the worst as it would leave a deep scar for sure..

-God,forgive me for my past sins...
-whom their heart I broke,
-their feelings I hurt,
-their pride I trampled.

-FORGIVE ME...